A Plea

It is by faith and through great contemplation that I write this now. I had to battle my own pride in order to say what I am about to. Forgive me if anything that I say can be a bit too discouraging. I am human and I am much like any other sinner out there. So this one will be unlike any other piece I have written. This is a plea for help.

I have fallen. I am at a point where I have consistently ignored God's presence in my life. Over and over I say to myself: "I am allowed to feel this way, God will always be there." I have taken for granted His word, His blessings. I believe that if God really wanted me back- He would have done something to me by now. Maybe I am waiting for His rebuke. And on that account, I have allowed myself to sin. That maybe when I do, I would feel guilty enough to go back to God and ask for forgiveness. Sadly, that just made me go even further into darkness.

I would love to say to you now that all of this has passed. It hasn't. And that's where I hope and pray that you come along to help me. I desperately need your support and prayers. I am stepping out of my own weakness to try and reach out. I firmly believe that people are God's instruments. We are all part of God's master plan- and that He speaks through others. As my brothers and sisters in Christ- I reach out to all of you. A word of advice would be nice or even a short prayer. If I get no response here, I am assuming we are going through the exact same thing. Thus, I say to you, I completely understand and you will be in my prayers.

"⁵This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. ⁶If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. ⁷But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin." 1 John 1:5-7

My soul faints for Your salvation

My soul faints for Your salvation; I hope in Your Word. Psalm 119:81

When was the last time you yearned for the Lord's salvation? I know we are already saved the moment we put our faith in Christ. What I am referring to is the completion of our salvation--that day when we will stand in the golden streets of heaven and finally see God face to face. When was the last time you really longed to be with God in heaven?

I have to admit, I have been very comfortable with this life and this world that I have not been thinking about going to heaven much. The world has a way of making me forget that I am a citizen of heaven and not of this world. I have been pre-occupied with planning for my future here, building a house, having a successful career, a wife, my own family… But nothing more after that. I'm not even sure if I'm going to live long enough to have all those. What is definitely sure is that I'm going to die one day and be with God in heaven and yet that's the very thing I don’t often mind.

Why am I not excited about going to heaven anymore? It could be for the following reasons:

• I'm too busy trying to gain as much as I can out of this world
• My love for Lord is dying out, thus, I don’t long to see Him
• I'm too comfortable and don’t experience any form of difficulties because I'm not serving the Lord at all
• I don't believe God has better things to show me there

Out of all these, I think the first is my number one reason for not longing for the Lord's salvation. I thank God for reminding me of this verse, "For what shall it profit a man if he shall gain the whole world and lose his own soul?" (Mark 8:36) God's word is just filled with promises of a new life and new hope--not here on earth but in heaven with Him.

Lord, please help me fall in love with you again. Help me to have a deep longing for you and your salvation. Do not let me be content with what I am now, where I am now and what I have now. I know everything here on earth will pass away and will never completely satisfy. Make me yearn for You and your heaven. Amen.

Do We Need Forgivness?

Have you ever commited something in the past that you regret and until now is still haunting you? Have you done something wrong in your life that you could almost say "it's unforgivable"? I did.

 

There are so many mistakes I have done that really affected my view of forgiveness. So many errors I would like to change if only I could turn back time. I regret a lot of things in the past that I wish never happened. I used to think that God will never forgive me because I am so sinful, I'm just plain too dirty.

 

I can remember one moment I would imagine, what if my life was like a computer game. You commit a game-changing error- you won't be able to finish the mission because of that which leads to only one solution, RESET. Hit that button so you could do things all over again. How I wish things could be like that. You could modify a life-changing mistake by just hitting a button.

 

How important is forgiveness? I can clearly recall one friend of mine. He was always fuming and most of the time out-of-control. He was always the problem child and often would be called the "black sheep" of the family. Until now, he is still struggling finding his worth in this world. But I found out that the reason behind such is that he never felt true love. He was a product of a broken home and nobody guided him, nobody cared for him as he grew because people could only see his failure--his mistakes.  This made me realize that great true love can be experienced through forgiveness. Loving a person no matter who/what he is is one thing, but forgiving that person for committing something against you and your will is another. Imagine if this person experienced forgiveness, things would've been different.

 

But good thing the Lord knew we needed this. We need forgiveness. We have all sinned (Romans 3:23), we have all committed life-changing mistakes, we have all fall short from our family's expectation, we have all failed one point in our lives--we are all sinners and we need forgiveness.

 

In Psalms 130:3-5 says,

 

 ³ If you, O LORD, kept a record of sins,
       O Lord, who could stand?

 ⁴ But with you there is forgiveness;
       therefore you are feared.

 ⁵ I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
       and in his word I put my hope.

He is does not keep a record of our sins . He loves us that much! He said in 1 Corinthians 13:5 that love does not keep record of wrongs. He loves us so much that He is willing to cleanse us, to forgive us and forget whatever mistakes we have done for if He remembered--no one will stand. He is offering us the RESET button. I have to admit that I need it badly. I need to hit that button by saying, "Lord forgive me".

 

We could only experience forgiveness if we humble ourselves and ask for it. God is willing to forgive us only if we ask it deep in our hearts.

 

We need this RESET button badly, but are we willing to surrender to the Lord and ask?